Wednesday, November 23, 2011

The Simulation

Hello everyone.

I know it has been a while since writing. My life has been up and down. Busy but not. Tired and recuperating from the awful chemotherapy. It has been about 3 1/2 weeks since my last treatment. PHew. That was a long 4 months. I am done with the poison.

I had my Simulation last Friday. This is where the radiology oncologist puts you through a CT scan, measures the diameter of your chest, places tattoos for radiation and sends you on your way, after lying on this cold table for 30 minutes with your hands above your head. I didn't mind. I set myself to meditation and called on my Reiki Guides and my Archangels Michael and Raphael. They enveloped me and could feel their wings engulfing me. Before I knew it, it was over. The tattoos are made with one needle with a little bit of ink. I have 3 now. I have never had a tattoo before. It wasn't too bad!!! one on the side of where my left breast was, one in the middle of my chest and one on the outside of right breast. Not too bad.

I will start rads on Nov 30. I will have 33 treatments. so that puts me into Jan before I am done. As long as there are no bad snow storms to delay my rads. If I have to miss an appt for radiation, then they tack it on the end of the rounds.

On Monday, I have a second opinion with Dr. Susan O'Connor for further resection of the lymph nodes in the left axillary area. Dr. Huang stated that there is a new study out that states that you shouldn't go back into do more surgery. I don't know. So will see another doc on Monday. Then Wednesday, radiation.

I am seeing a behavioral pyschiatrist as well, Dr. Fergeson at Lafayette. He is very nice. HE is going to help me with my anxiety and fatigue due to chemotherapy and the dx of breast cancer. He is good.,

Abby and Zach are doing great. They are glad to have their mommy back and feeling a little better. I don't spend most of the day in bed or in the chair as much as I used to. I am getting up earlier. I haven't slept late for at least 2 weeks. Late as in 10am. That chemo was bad for me though good at killing the cancer cells.

I have had a rib that has been hurting on the cancer side in the back area. I was scared that maybe the cancer had spread. Bone Scan Monday was negative except for a tooth that has been bothering me. I am on Amoxicillin for it.

Taxol was the second chemo agent I was on and I have some lasting effects that may or may not go away. I won't know for at least 6-8 months if it will go away. My fingers and toes are numb and tingly. I have a hard time feeling with the tips of my fingers. the sheets hurt my toes. It is an awful feeling. I make bracelets and necklaces. I can't feel the beads. I have to be careful. One night I found like a handful of beads in my lap cause I dropped them. haha. I am taking Gabapentin and it helps a bit.

I want to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving!!.

I am selling Scentsy products. visit my website.
A little of work on the side. I love all the smells, esp blueberry cheesecake.

Until next time, I love you all.

                                    The Silver Pen

This is me just a few days ago. little bit of hair, just little fuzzy on top, little bit longer in the back

                                               Zach took this picture himself
                                               with my iPhone. reverse picture

Lepidolite necklaces by Dennis Durgin, Mt Marie
South Paris.

He is very talented, mines his own minerals.

One for me, the lower one with rose quartz
the top one for Abby with Tourmaline (I believe)

                                                      My Handsome DAD with
                                                                  my Wig on.

Zach at Daycare, Little Tot's Daycare Corinna.

Hope Flower

My Painting,
The Hope Flower

Please visit my website as well.  open house this weekend. Contact me for more details.


Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Halfway There

Hello all. It has been a while since writing. I have my own little support group on facebook. We started out on We have moved on due to some moderation issues. But we are lovin it on facebook. There are so many diverse women in the group named Fighters, a closed group to those with cancer. Fighting or survivor.

We have one from Greece, 2 from Ireland, i believe, many from the US and several from Ontario, Canada. We keep invtouch. We are all around the same time frsme of chemo and radiation! We try to keep each other uplifted.

I go friday for simulation for radiation. Then 33 treatments, mon-fri for about 5 weeks.

Zach and I had Friday and Saturday tobond and have time together. I love him so much. He is a handfull!!!! I was pooped onSunday. I had some weird things happening! The energy in the air was charged positively and negativly. My medium intentions were subconsciously telling me to oprn up my energy. As my healing energy opens and gets stronger, i have symptoms of saddness and headaches.

I want to send out healing energy to my whole support team.
Abby, zach, troy, mom,dad, mimi, cyndi, karen belanger, debbie white and danielle white, alicia jacobs and all my pts that have helped me. You know who you are! Thank you with all of myheart and soul i love all of you!!!


Tuesday, November 1, 2011

8 Treatments Done!!! Only radiation left

Monday, October 31st was my last chemo treatment.  I am so excited. Only 2 more weeks of feeling poorly. The side effects have not kicked in yet, the bad ones anyway. I have been tired and yesterday after getting home from Lafayette I was pretty much dead to the world. I went straight to bed and slept for at least 2 hours, then Troy took Abby out Trick or Treating. She had a great time. I stayed and cuddled with Zach until they got back. I went back to bed and slept until 11 am this morning.

Zach has been sick the whole last 2 weeks. He was up Sunday all night coughing. I probably only got 2 hours of sleep. Troy stayed home with him and my Aunt Cyndi came and sat with me while I had my infusion. Thank you Cyndi.

I am waiting for an appt for my CT and simulation for the Radiation. I will let everyone know when that is when I get the date. Then will be tattooed and then will start radiation.

Mt Marie, South Paris Maine, No Trespassing Sign

 Thursday, last week, my Aunt Cyndi took Abby and me to Mt. Marie, in South Paris, Maine. Dennis Durgin owns the mountain and mines there. He made the two necklaces that you see further down. Matching, one for me and one for Abby. We came home with, I think the whole Mountain. Smokey Quartz and Clear Quartz, I love them. I also got some rough Lepidolite and small pieces of Watermelon Tourmaline. they are quite rough and are good for bedside pieces. Healing stones.

Matching Lepidolite Necklaces

My dad with my Wig on!!
Lepidolite on Mt Marie, South Paris Maine

Abby and Mommy on top of Mt Marie, South Paris Maine

Girly Vampire

Cyndi, Abby and me sitting on top of Mt Marie

Dennis, Abby and Cyndi looking for Beryl

We had a fun time on top of Mt Marie. Abby still has to write a paper on what she learned because I took her out of school to go and mine gems. We had a great time.

Will leave another message in  a few days.
Love you all.