Well, tomorrow is the big day. Surgery. I keep thinking, what am I going to look like with one breast? I just can't imagine it. Why me? Why did God pick me to go through this? Why does my family have to go through this?
At least, I have only cried maybe 4 or 5 times today. My mom and dad came up for the day. I love them so much. They gave me everything to be able to go to college and become a nurse. I have for as long as I can remember wanted to be a nurse. I think it was the summer before my 6th grade year, I had to have my appendix removed. I remember the nurses taking good care of me. I was in Bar Harbor hospital for about 4-5 days. Ever since then I wanted to be a nurse and help people.
Here I am today, I went back to school and became a Nurse Practitioner. If it weren't for my mom and dad and my husband, Troy, I wouldn't be here doing what I am doing today.
I want to say to my husband, Troy, I love you. Thank you for 2 beautiful children, Abby Sue 9 yrs, and Zachary 3 yrs. They are my life! Why do they have to go through this? My husband has been right by my side since the diagnosis.
So, surgery tomorrow. I am quite nervous about what may happen. I received some presents from Beth Bacon at SVH mammography department. A camisole with "removeable boobs" depending which side you have surgery on. I guess laughing is the best thing, sort of. lol.
Well, the next time you hear from me will be after the surgery. Goodnight for now.
Remember, Self Breast Exams find more cancer then mammograms. Know your breasts! If anything changes, contact your PCP.
Thank you all.